O for grace to trust him more...

{Airport Beach, Film - Canon AE-1, 2010}

"TIS SO SWEET"

Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus

Just to take Him at His Word

Just to rest upon His promise

Just to know Thus sayeth the Lord

O how sweet to trust in Jesus

Just to trust His cleansing blood

And in simple faith to plunge me

Neath the healing cleansing flood

Jesus Jesus how I trust him

How I've proved him o'er and o'er

Jesus Jesus precious Jesus

O for grace to trust him more

Yes, 'tis sweet to trust in Jesus

Just from sin and self to cease

Just from Jesus simply taking

Life and rest, and joy and peace

Aching for trust lately. I would love to have that peace, that knowledge that everything is going to be ok. I need to stop analyzing, stop doubting, stop questioning and "rest upon His promise". 1 Peter 5:7 - Casting all your cares upon Him for HE cares for you. Ah. I need to let go. I need to believe and trust and REST in this promise. 

Happy 31st Wedding Anniversary Mom and Dad!!

love you to the moon and back :)

happy 31 years! 

Soo proud, SO proud. 

Sunset Cliffs, San Diego

Registered in the State of California! (not to vote....yet..)

AHH! We got our car registered today! We were supposed to do it by the 23rd but we came in three days later and I was TERRIFIED they were going to charge us another 200$! Chris told me not to say anything - so I didn't and guess what! We were in the DMV no more than a half hour and being helped took like 30 seconds and we were done! WHAHOO! That was totally weighing on my shoulders but I prayed about it and I'm sure it's by the grace of God that we skipped the late fee :) SAD to take off our Hawaii plates....although it's a new adventure - so it's bittersweet. PLUS Chris said that we can move back and get new ones :) hah. We are so glad they didn't take our plates, we are going to put one of them up on our wall :) Now we just need a new license and some more work on the car as well as registering to vote in the state of CA before we are really californians - which i don't know if i will ever claim that title, but again - new adventures.

PIZZA night!!

FIRST home-made pizza EVER! 

recipe for the dough here...

the sauce was ragu home-made style pizza sauce - i sprinkled cheese over the sauce, then added pepperoni, then more sprinkled cheese, then salt, pepper, italian seasoning, garlic salt, red pepper flakes. YUM!

*the only thing i would do different - make a little less dough and make it on my pizza stone for an even crust heating. the dough from being baked on the pan was more soft.

YAY for trying new things :) PERFECT for sunday night football :)

a day off :)

...sleeping in...

drINKing coffEE....

....reading about potions and monsters :) aka Harry Potter 2.

hangING with my BABes T & P......

....croCHETINg and cooking NEw things

tonight is HOME maDE pizza!! 

.....WAIting for my HUSby to come home to me for Dinn and fOOTball! 

Slouch Beanie :) (with the Infinity Scarf)

tOO cuTe!! 

from my pinterest crafts and things board...

LEVEL: Beginner

MATERIALS: One Skein I Love This Yarn! or any worsted weight yarn

Size J hook

STITCH NOTE:

DECREASE: Yo, pull up loop, yo, pull through two loops, yo, pull up loop in next stitch, yo, pull through two loops, yo, pull through all remaining loops.

Ch 3 and sl st in first stitch to form a ring

Round 1: Ch 3 (turning chain counts as first dc here & throughout), dc in center of ring 11 times (12 total). Join with sl stitch in turning chain.

Round 2: Ch 3, dc in same stitch (increase made), 2 dc in each stitch around ending with sl st in turning chain.

Round 3: Ch 3, *2 dc in next stitch, 1 dc in next stitch*, continue from * to * ending with sl st in turning chain.

Round 4: Ch 3, 1 dc in next stitch, *2 dc in next stitch, 1 dc in next 2 stitches*, continue from * to * ending with sl st in turning chain.

Round 5: Ch 3, 1 dc in next 2 stitches, *2 dc in next stitch, 1 dc in next 3 stitches*, continue from * to * ending with sl st in turning chain.

Round 6: Ch 3, 1 dc in next 3 stitch, *2 dc in next stitch, 1 dc in next 4 stitches*, continue from * to * ending with sl st in turning chain.

Round 7: Ch 3, 1 dc in next 4 stitches, *2 dc in next stitch, 1 dc in next 5 stitches*, continue from * to * ending with sl st in turning chain.

Round 8: Ch 3, 1 dc in next 5 stitches, *2 dc in next stitch, 1 dc in next 6 stitch*, continue from * to * ending with sl st in turning chain.

Rounds 9-10: Ch 3, 1 dc in each stitch around (WORK EVEN).

Round 11: Ch 3, 1 dc in next 5 stitches, *dc decrease in next 2 stitches, 1 dc in next 6 stitches*, continue from * to * ending with sl st in turning chain.

Round 12: Ch 3, 1 dc in next 4 stitches, *dc decrease in next 2 stitches, 1 dc in next 5 stitches*, continue from * to * ending with sl st in turning chain.

Round 13: Ch 3, 1 dc in next 3 stitches, *dc decrease in next 2 stitches, 1 dc in next 4 stitches*, continue from * to * ending with sl st in turning chain.

Round 14: Ch 3, *1 dc in next 7 stitches, dc decrease (see above) in next 2 stitches, 1 dc in next 6 stitches*, continue from * to * ending with sl st in turning chain.

Round 15-19: Ch 2 (counts as first sc), sc in each stitch across. End row by joining with slip stitch in turning chain.

Fasten off.

morning with jesus.

{iron woods beach, maui, 2010}

this morning i was awakened by a prince kissing my cheek as he headed off to work....

i got up, thinking of all the possibilities of this sunday as i am not working.

i remembered it is in fact sunday, i have missed church so deeply. 

so i had my own little session after i brushed my teeth and put deodorant on, i gathered "Get out of that Pit" by Beth Moore, "One Thousand Gifts" by Ann Voskamp, "NIV Study Bible" and "The Message". 

two things stood out to me this morning that i would love to share :)

 "One Thousand Gifts", whew! It starts out strong! everyone has their stories that brings them to question God, that makes them in a kind of depression or gets them stuck in a pit. Then down in the depths of despair when we realize that we need to find the joy and happiness in life amidst the trials is when we go searching for Ann's book that "dares you to live fully right where you are", teaching us how to "biblically lament loss, turning pain into poetry; intentionally embrace a lifestyle of radical gratitude; and slow down and catch God in the moment." 

I only read the first chapter but here are my favorite parts..."His love letter forever silences any doubts: "His secret purpose framed from the very beginning is to bring us to our full glory" (1 Corinthians 2:7 NEB). He means to rename us- to return us to our true names, our truest selves. He means to heal our soul holes. From the very beginning, that Eden beginning, that has always been and always is, to this day, His secret purpose - our return to our full glory." "He means to fill us with glory again. With glory and grace........................................and ............""Maybe...I guess....it's accepting there are things we simply don't understand. But He does." And I see. At least a bit more. When we find ourselves groping along, famished for more, we can choose. When we are despairing."

to finish off the lovely start to the day i had a wonderful conversation with my savior and found this beautiful piece of scripture (that I do like better in the NIV than the message.)

Psalm 103:1-5

"Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits - who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagles."

AHH....wonderful. I hope you all have such a beautiful Sunday. 

living my life..

...warning: this is a tad confusing and deep and a bit more about my heart than you may want to know. don't feel like you have to read it, only if you want to :)

MY life. Not the life of others. Not being so involved in others lives that my mind creates an imaginary situation imitating others misfortunes creating issues in our lives that weren't there in the first place. Does that make sense? My entire life I have been so firm of my belief in marriage, in love and long lasting relationships. I was never introduced to the pain and confusion and hurt that is divorce until this last year that my brother and dear friend went through just that. Being SO involved in their lives and caring for them through the hard situations that went with divorce shook my ideals and beliefs. I questioned if i really believed marriage was as wonderful, or if you really can have one true love, or if people, or I, will make it more than 5-10 years of marriage without it breaking. Is it possible today? Especially with all the shows and commercials making marriage look like prison and the most horrible thing that could happen to a person. The world making divorce look like is such an easy way out, that fighting for those vows you pledged in front of hundreds isn't worth it. That there is so much to look forward to after divorce, you are free, you don't have to cook and clean for anyone anymore, you can be independent and successful in business and sleep with whoever you like, never getting "tied down" again. These are the things I used to refuse to believe was possible, the things i swore would never happen to me or anyone I knew. The things I FOUGHT against in my mind. I never let it get to me - until this past year. The breaking of my loved ones marriage really rocked my brain. It's created a fear, doubt, lack of trust and a scared feeling in my heart (not their faults - i just care and worry extra amounts). I thought about it too much. I hurt for them so much. It was always in my mind - I went over it over and over...how could this happen? I can't believe it happened. My eyes opened and I was well aware of how many are divorced, the dishonesty in marriage, how much relationship problems are stressed on the tv through reality or sarcasm and how many singles think marriage is crazy because they are living the life!! So losing my confidence and my values in something i now HAVE myself is quite terrifying. My imagination has taken nothing situations and made them blow up into a horrifying life altering crises. So in REAL life when I see something that again IS in fact nothing with my husband I create an issue that wasn't one in the first place and end up crying and emotional and feeling bad at the end for not trusting. UGH. SO. What am I going to do to stop this silliness before I DO create a REAL problem? I need to give it up to Jesus, I need to read his word because this flame has only gotten bigger and I need to be rid of Satan. I am thinking about seeing a counselor - I'm wondering if i'm reacting this way because i was told of their situations long distance and I wonder if I just haven't had closure or asked enough questions. I am going to read love poems and try to watch less trash tv. I am going to read 1000 gifts - learning to be happy and content where I am RIGHT here and now. I am going to be secure, firm and concrete in my belief that marriage IS wonderful, love is AMAzing to have in your life especially when shared with the "one". I will not question it. I WILL trust my husband because HE chooses to kiss me goodbye before work when he thinks i'm asleep, HE chooses to tell me he loves me, HE orders me boots without me even trying them on, HE provides for me and loves to show me the world, my husband LOVES me and I will believe it because it is so. ahh i have only mainly told my dearest Ileta about my confusion and she saw it first hand - the girl head over heals and secure in her marriage - to im scared if something will happen to us unsure girl. I am going back to that secure girl and SHE knows I can do it and she supports me and is just such a dear friend. Please if you pray, please pray that the devil will stop screwing with my mind and just let me be the fun, joyful, confident and drama free woman that I like being. Soo appreciate it. (ps to those friends that went through the divorce that will read this - it's not your fault, i don't blame you - i love you heaps - I believe that the Lord will provide you with a man and woman who are Gods best for you someday soon and I can't wait for that day!!:))

Infinity Scarf (short version)

INFINITY SCARF

chain 100, slst to join, chain 1 and sc in each 100, repeat until you have 10 rows. fasten off.

next time I'm going to chain 200 or 300 and make an even longer infinity scarf. i used the yarn my friend Sarah gave me for a birthday years ago, i LOVE it. can't wait to make another!! maybe even with a fancy pattern! what do you think?!

30 Day Photo Challenge: Day 12, 13, 14

DAY 12: CLOSE UP

DAY 13: FROM A DISTANCE 

DAY 14: FLOWERS

a taste of heaven on earth....

....was having my parents here to visit in our new city, in our new home to show them our new life :) They got to see our home first and meet their grandkitties :) I took them to in and out for their first experience ever which ended up being a fabulous success. SO many fun conversations catching up about every little thing, laughing, dad's jokes and moms smile! We relaxed in the hot-tub, had delish meals and such peaceful walks on the coast of california filling our pockets with treasures. The four of us spent such a fun time at the zoo and in old town! Coronado and Sea Port Village was great and I LOVED playing games with mom and dad. Even though it was fun to be out of the house and tour the town, my favorite parts of their visit was just relaxing and talking and playing games. Things we would do normally if we were still in WA. Watching Anne of Green Gables with mom and dad, getting a back rub from mom, eating meals and talking about life, mom and I going for our very own coffee date while the boys went for breakfast, cooking while the boys watched football, playing yathzee and quiddler ya know?!, those things...those things we my favorite. If I could do that the whole time I would have :) Although I did enjoy getting out of the house. It was such a blessing to have them here. The last two days I struggled with my attitude as I was realizing they are leaving so soon and then it will be another three months before i see them again! I can't tell you how hard it is to let them in, enjoy life while they are here and then let them go - just like that - 5 days and poof!! people you spent 22 years under the same roof or a half hour away...and then they are going two states away, a 24hr drive, a 3hr flight and just wayyy TOO far away and too soon. UGH. Well, I have these photos to look at, and my parents will soon get skype again which will help, thank goodness I have my husband here with me :) He is my anchor (other than jesus.) I am grateful for the Lords provisions here and I am grateful we are now on the mainland! Until we meet again parentals....please enjoy these as they are MY favorite images of the time we spent together :)

 adoring chris :)

and now the kitties :) 

i LOVE this of them. ESP moms smile. thats a happy im with my daughter smile :) 

ah. we were told we have the same smile :) 

love.

 handsome

they are PRECious 

soo fun all at the zoo, the boys making jokes here and there :) 

 ah i think she is a vision.

and he a stud and MY HUSband :) 

the 4 of us :) papas sweet face. 

 dad with his son! 

yahtzee!!!

 

 romance.

papa in a distance. 

mama FILLEd with joy. 

 LOVE when they laugh together. they really are a great pair.

 love her so much it aches.

 ohhh my papa :)

together :)

i was repaying her for the back rub :)

 mom and my date to ocean beach :)

 love this candid, just conversing over pizza and fish tacos :)

the boardwalk before goodbyes..