i take pictures....

sneak peek of the Dowling Family :) more to come...

my i wish i were in today outfit :)

isn't this SUUUPER cute?! thanks to 

http://thelittlethingswedo.blogspot.com/

He loves me for me

He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He's the kid with the story no one would believe

He prays every night, "Dear God won't you please...

Could you send someone here who will love me?"

Who will love me for me

Not for what I have done or what I will become

Who will love me for me

'Cause nobody has shown me what love

What love really means

Her office is shrinking a little each day

She's the woman whose husband has run away

She'll go to the gym after working today

Maybe if she was thinner

Then he would've stayed

And she says...

Who will love me for me?

Not for what I have done or what I will become

Who will love me for me?

'Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means

He's waiting to die as he sits all alone

He's a man in a cell who regrets what he's done

He utters a cry from the depths of his soul

"Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home"

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside

And it said

"I know you've murdered and I know you've lied

I have watched you suffer all of your life

And now that you'll listen, I'll tell you that I..."

I will love you for you

Not for what you have done or what you will become

I will love you for you

I will give you the love

The love that you never knew

-JJ Heller, What Love Really Means-

When people of the world constantly disappoint and break hearts and never fulfill the need for love and every other feeling you want to have to feel worth. Jesus steps in, he loves me for me. He ADORES me. He choose me before I was a thought in my parents heads. I am fulfilled. 

relax, refresh, renew.

Ahh this is my friday. What are you doing for your weekend lovelies? I just want to relax. By the water, in my home, in a coffee shop with a book or in my tub :) I SOO wish this were MY tub, but no worries, it will be someday. This is my dream, and I will accomplish it and have ownership of such beauty!
Happy Weekend!

Thank you Liz for finding these tresures for me! 

http://fromportlandtopeonies.blogspot.com/2011/01/bathtub-beauty.html

books list. due by April.

books. i love you books. 

about a chapter left :) Love it so far....

recommended by the Runestrand Family...many of them..next read? yes please.

 maybe the last on the list of four....

might read this while i read "The Hunger Games" it's been a while edward and jacob :) 

A Familiar Face :)

So, the other day I was at work, sitting on the bar chair while taking my time folding menus..hah. lazzzzzy. I was talking with a gal a bit and as i turned to look at her and say something, this lady is standing there, staring at me and says KATHERINE!!!! It was Mrs. Lann! Karen Lann, My Aunt Heidi and Uncle Marks Mom!!! AHH. I TOTALLY didn't expect to see her. I started CRYING, I am such a baby, but somehow I don't care...it just showed me how i miss everything familiar. We chatted and then Tim realized his wife wasn't walking beside him and came for her to find US talking :) We took a snapshot and I got back to work, after like 30 minutes of talking!!! :) again, it was a laaaazy day!! haha. We met up later that week for lunch! The Food was HORRIBLE, the worst I've had in Maui, I felt SOO bad. But We had a great time catching up. Chris was able to go which was just FABulous. Another time Chris and I went to their condo, to see their place and to go hang out on the beach for an hour or so and talk...girl girl boy boy. It was SOO fun. I loved every second of talking with Karen. I always liked her. So sweet. I loved getting all the dirt about the cousins since I've been away for too long and they are growing oh so fast. Chris and Tim had a great time talking as well, pretty good since this was the second time they had spent time together! I am grateful for Tim, such a sport for my Husband! He misses guy time, no matter what age of fellow. ahh, all this being said....it was a huge blessing for both of us. Thank you Lanns for letting us crash your precious Vacation time, we are oh so grateful!

Karen and I

Tim, Karen, Me, Chris :) 

kitty love :)

could they BE any cuter?!?!

What's better than todays digital canon professional camera?

1967 AE-1 Canon FILM Professional CAmera :) I ADORE it. It is one of my most treasured possessions. I use it. I use it for special occasions...and occasionally I receive beautiful outcomes! Ah and to know I DID EvERYTHING myself rather than just putting it on a "P" setting to do all the work for me?!? I do it. All. WOW This sounds cocky. But I see the art in My Film camera. I feel way more satisfied when I receive a pristine portrait from it...far more than my digital. I wish you could have one. It's the most wonderful thing! Ok....enough from me...heres the PHOTOs I ADORE.

 shipwreck beach...

 america 2...sailboat.

 favorite sign in makawao

 iletas idea :) LOvE! 

bamboo

Do you HAVE anything you LOVE to do like HOW much I ADORE taking photos manually with a film camera?  PLEASE share :) I would love to hear and learn about you this way! Passions are riveting and contagious :) 

the man I married....

is absolutely amazing. I am utterly and stupidly in love with this man. He is everything to me. How could God bless me so? To God be the Glory. I am forever grateful.

Marvelous Monday :)

im going to read me some Harry Potter....

lay with my husband and talk about everything or nothing..

watch the best show on earth - laugh and cry.

show my husband what an amazing cook i am! 

 and take a bubble bath :) 

Happy Monday! What are you going to do today?! 

can't get you out of my head....

(I have an actual Polaroid camera now, so someday when we decide to have a baby....I can do this!!!)

...you. That thought before you become a fetus. Before you become a baby. Before you become our baby. I don't write about this often. I guess because i treasure it soo deep in my heart. Also many around me are pregnant or just had babies....which i have been nothing but supportive and happy about! I don't want anyone to think I have an ounce of jealousy or longing for thier life. I love my life. I'm happy with where we are and what we have planned to do. I'm excited for when we have talked about making this big life decision. I have had a longing for a baby since...well pretty close after our wedding day. I think about it all the time, i long for it, my heart literally painfully aches for it my eyes tear for it. I can't say it hasn't been easy waiting. Chris and I are very excited. Very excited to see God grow this family of 4 to 5 :) I hope for Chris' longing sake God graces him with his little girl. Tonight for some reason the longing is almost too much to bear. I've been patient. Don't tell me "things change....so you better do all you can now"...where do you think we have been? What do you think we have been doing? We are ready. We have had our adventure and are ready to move on. To reality. To life, love, hardship, sleepless nights, bills, lack of dates self image struggle etc. I am ready. I want this. I have wanted this. Chris FINALLY wants this. Without me forcing him to get there. I don't bug him about it - just like I didn't bug him about wedding things. We WANT this thing many of you warn us about regardless of your issues. wow this sounds kinda harsh. but guess what. my heart. it's all real. we have been living our lives selfishly for our entire marriage of almost three years...literally. on a freaking island. away from anything and everything. just us. and our chill jobs. we are ready to live our lives for someone else..(other than Jesus...come on guys I'm talking about a baby here!) Anyway...I'm not pregnant. We are not trying right now. I am just debriefing because I am not telling my husband this and i don't have a friend to give my pity party to sooo this is this. you want gucci shoes....we want a baby. it's just not the time. AHH ok wiping my eyes, sucking it up and going to watch some science show with my lover.

better late than never....

Two sessions I did over the holidays....

Meet Andy, Janzen and Heather! 

Then Meet the Martinsen Family...you have seen them in posts before! 

The Conlys!

Such a darling family...