will you pray for me?

{Maui 2010}

I thought a certain door, for a fantastic job opportunity was closed...however today it opened back up, I haven't walked through the door yet and made myself comfortable but I am waiting to be asked inside :) hah. By wednesday I should know if this opportunity is going to be the job choice for me or not, step one anyway. I am trying to give it up to God. I don't want to get too excited and then be disappointed, however I know that he knows the desires of our hearts, so I am hopeful. As things, or if they become more solid I will fill you in a tad more as to what this job is all about, but I would so appreicate your prayer in the next few days. Thank you for your prayers and thoughts. I will keep you posted!

another one bit the dust..

ok....hah so after not hearing from the better buzz boss since wednesday..and calling and leaving messages and texts, i finally spoke with her today 2 hours before the shift i was scheduled for. She ended up covering my shifts assuming I was not going to show up even though i put in my two weeks....obviously they don't know me AT all. She said she was just crazy busy and it wasn't ideal but no problem and better now than later. I guess there are these rules about payment after someone puts in their two weeks and extra fees they have to pay and what not - and since monday is the cut off for payroll it's easier for her to not schedule me anymore..i don't understand that at all but thats what it is. SO...I am done with this job, and another one bites the dust. ha. WOW. So now that I had to go through that I am going to be very careful and cautious on my next job opportunity....Anyway. WHAT a mess. So relieved thats over.

so today it's been raining alllll day long, it's been cold, dark and gloomy. I have to say though, I love it. and I LOVE that I don't have to work at better buzz today in the cold and walk to it in the rain without an umbrella!! SO I have been cleaning and watching tv off and on...I am now sitting down watching "Because I Said So" and SO wishing I had a sister and my mother near. I can't wait to have some sister in laws someday. Caleb is days away from being divorced which is SO sad and my heart just aches for Him. I love him so much. I hope God just puts in front of him the best thing he could ever know and rather soon. He deserves it. I can't wait to be with my family this winter...it will be so fantastic. The in-laws and my brother in law are coming to our home in San Diego in January!! That will be the first time seeing them in over two years! Wow, happy.

Yesterday I was watching "Marley and Me". It gave me such happy thoughts. Dreaming. Dreaming of living in a home, having children with my best friend, getting a golden retriever, living, hurting, growing and loving. I just can't wait. We have so many great things ahead of us and I am just so excited for them. I can't wait. We are just starting this life here in a new place, and before we know it we will be ready for the dream I have always had...starting a family. AH! happy thoughts.

The holidays are quickly arriving and I have sooo many things to get going on :) I have to find the perfect recipes and perfect crafts to make our home all festive and such. AH fun. We also have to get going on painting our nativity that my nanny made for us before she passed away. YAY! lots to do!

AHH! I have to get going on our Christmas Cards! Do we want a hawaii pic? Or a San Diego pic? a card with a small photo inside and a letter? A custom made card? hmmm....So many choices!

I decided i want to take a cake baking class. That would be so fun, like a fancy one! With fondant and all?! baking is so therapeutic and I could make some friends, we'll see what happens!

So peter is going to take a very important test this monday or tues for his PT education. PRAYing he passes with flying colors. I know he will, and Michael, oh I miss that boy. I'm thinking of what tattoo to get from him. Also, Tyler just turned 21 WAHHHOO! So sad we weren't there to celebrate. :( I talked to ileta this last week for like 2 hours and it was soo great. Miss her terribly. I miss everything about Maui. And Washington. I guess we are never happy where we are huh?! Someday :) Oh man.

I don't work at Anthropologie until late at night tomorrow, it's our Christmas meeting, should be exciting! Anyway. Life is good, even though that crap went down with Better Buzz. I can't wait to find another part time job relating to photography or other things I am passionate about.

SOO happy that my husband will be home in one hour. Here I am rambling off, to who knows who, but whoever you are that took the time to read - or takes time to read about my heart, thank you for your caring heart, and your prayers and thoughts.

October 25, 2003

{warning....intense life story from the heart....}

It was a sunny late afternoon and life was perfect. I was Varsity in Soccer - left mid - the only left footer on the team, Varsity #2 Singles in Tennis, getting almost a 4.0 GPA, in the Music Team at my church, the schools GO-TO Photographer as well as already having paid shoots for families and seniors, in year 7 of piano, I had a part-time job at Little Caesars and an internship with Samuel Gardner of Samuel Lee Photography. Life was PERfect. I got into my white Geo Prizm on the most beautiful crisp and sunny late afternoon. I was headed to work because it was PAY DAY! After saying hello to my co-workers I got my check and headed back home... It was friday night and I had plans to watch a movie with my best friends Joel, Jess and Tanner. I was ALMOst home and one of my favorite songs came on, aHH I had to do a loop around the block, the windows were down, the music was up and I was feelin good. I was on badger and benson, there was a car coming in the opposite direction so I put my foot on the break until I was at a stop and turned on my left blinker. I wasn't in a hurry. The car passed and I looked in my mirrors and began to put my foot on the gas pedal as I was in the clear to turn left. I see a stroke of blue out of my left eye, then yellow. Suddenly there is no sound. The world was happening in slow motion. Seconds pass that feel like hours. I did EVERYthing right. There was no car coming at me. WHAT is going on?? All of a sudden I hear again. A yellow mustang slams into a telephone pole and breaks it in half, I am somehow parked on the side of the nice couples home that let us pick their apples across from the veterinary hospital. The sound of my heart POUNDing is all I can hear. All I can think to do is get out of my car, run to the mustang, see how many people were in there, how many people were ok after the car crushed in half, and what I could do to get them out. I didn't even know. I didn't even know what happened to me. I didn't know until after checking on them that my car was completely altered, totally smashed and totaled. I didn't know that my head hit the window when a teenager thought he could tempt life as he illegally passed me on the left as i was turning left at 70+miles an hour, as I was at less than 15, crashed into me. They call it "T" bone. He "T" boned my car. I couldn't think. I couldn't cry. I didn't think to call my parents in the 2 hours I was at the site nor did anyone suggest it. I didn't think i needed to go to the hospital even though the firemen should have made me. Instead I was hit on by the guy who smashed me, who asked "so what are YOU doing tonight?", and to make matters worse I was expected by the cop and the firemen to drive my totaled car home. This is when the true horror started. Getting hit at 70+ miles an hour having my head smash on the window, that is trauma, something I blocked into a certain section of my brain trying to protect myself from it. By the time I had to drive my car home, I was wide awake. The entire ride home my eyes could not have been any bigger, my shoulders could not have been any higher, my legs could not have been any more sturdy than they were to try and keep the car from veering left into the opposite lane into oncoming traffic. The alignment was off completely, so yes the whole time I was trying to turn the car right, as it wanted to go left, as I was going straight. By the time I rolled in the driveway, my mom came out on the porch and i ran into her arms and just BAULED. The first time I cried in that entire situation was when they made me drive that car home. Mom and Dad held me, they let me cry and cry. All I wanted to do was go to my friends house for a movie. All I wanted to do was what I was going to do, be normal, enjoy time with my friends after a horrible experience, pretend like it never happened. Of course I had to explain it to them when my mom dropped me off, I was late. They were there for me and we tried to have a normal evening. When the hang time was over I was still shaken up and well, scared. My brother Caleb said there was a movie night at the Nonhoff's, that we could go over there before coming home. So my sweet protective brother took me to my REAL BFF Malorie's home for a movie night. Being with the people I love and avoiding the pampering and the reality of the situation is what I wanted. Little did I know that would be the LAST day in 4 years that I would be able to AVOID the reality of that situation. The beginning of that next week I saw the doctor.  It started with a concussion. Then the MRI's. The Neurologists. Being told I have to quit the Soccer team because another hit to the head could put me in a coma. Then pain in my trapezius muscles. Then Physical Therapy and Massage Therapy. Then I had to quit Tennis due to my achey muscles and I had so many doctor appointments I could never make the practices. Then came Depression due to all the life changes following the accident. Then there was a forced Counselor. Then there was flunking out in Spanish 3, and Chemistry. Then came neuropsychology testing. Then I was told I had short term memory loss, and if it didn't get better in three years It never will. Then there was speech therapy. All of a sudden Vertigo. Then Physical Therapy for my balance. I can't walk in a straight line you know. Then there was my GPA dropping to just over three in less than 2 years when i kept it at almost 4. my whole life. Then I had special treatment from my teachers that no one knew about. I tested on subjects right after we learned them rather than several subjects after weeks of study. I lost my best friend. She just didn't want to be my friend anymore. I was taking ALL My anger out mainly at my mom and creating hurtful lasting memories of pain. My Physical therapist told me they could no longer help me. After three years the neuropsycologist told me I my brain had not healed. My counselor wouldn't answer my calls when I was finally needing and wanting to open up. I no longer felt like I could go to the college I got into "Brooks Institute of Photography" the best photography school in the world, one of the hardest schools to get into. I flunked two courses and dropped my grades in others how could I possibly do well at Brooks? I never slept, well anyway. I was on sleeping pills, depression pills, pain pills all as a teenager. 80year olds would tell me how they were struggling with forgetting things and I genuinely knew how they felt. My friends said I asked them the same questions over and over. I didn't care about life. I didn't care. I had suicidal thoughts. I didn't think Jesus cared. I was MAD at Him for what he allowed to happen to me. I got anxiety attacks, where I literally couldn't breath. I have flashbacks, in cars. I went through a 4 year court case having to sue my own damn insurance company because they knew in the beginning how much medical care I would need and didn't want to have to pay. When kids my age were at games and home doing homework, or doing an after school activity - I was dealing with depositions and details and vulture lawyers. Ever since dipshit doctor DICKson told the lawyer that he thought I had depression before the accident, they tried to take my journals from me. I was worrying that they would get a hold of my 6ish personal journals. I refused to give them up. My dad dropped them off at a friends house wrapped in bags and he buried them in his back yard. These aren't things High Schoolers should worry about. The suit ended over a cyber settle in 2007 since I wouldn't give up my journals. Chris was my boyfriend then. We had a bon fire and burned all the files. Except the letters. The letters I was never supposed to see. The ones all my loved ones sent the lawyers about how I was before and after the accident. Saddest truth of all.

8 years ago and you would think I would have just LETITGO by now. Except for some reason all day toady I was having my usual flashback. I was mad. I was mad at the guy who ruined me. I was mad at the cop and the fireman matt harvey for making me drive that car home. I was mad at that lawyer for trying to take personal journals from a teenager. I was just soo mad (understatement.) I am better in some ways. Some of my spanish has come back to me with the help of a friend and that my friend is brain growth. My ability to maintain cleanliness and order is also better. I am sad to report most of the other things are just and will be there for the long haul. I have new friends that have loved me through hardships. I don't hate God but rather praise him for all, good and bad. He is my friend again. My mother and I have been patching our relationship over the years - there are setbacks but we are in such a better place. There are things that force me to remember. I hurt. All the time. My neck, my shoulders, my back. My head - It just feels so blank sometimes, I struggle with my speech often, as well as my memory. I still can't walk in a straight line, nor have I completely gotten rid of my vertigo. All this makes my sleep soo on and off. Right now, it's 2:06 and I'm wide awake. That day. That FUCKED up day. It gave me a lack of confidence, it took away my courage, my strength, my determination, my ability to push through trials. It took away my college. My chance to succeed at my God Given Gift. Yes, I have an eye and a passion but I need to learn too. I want to learn. That chance that I had, in that time that I was so lost and confused, I gave up my chance to have confidence in what I do. Now, I'm in a place that all I NEED is that degree. I am almost 25. I am working at a place that I love yes, but it's folding clothes. I WANT to be capturing memories. I WANT to be WANTED, or NEEDED, or Liked or loved or talked about as if I am important. I also WANT to be a mom. If I went to school now, we would add more debt, and have to delay having children another 2-3 years. If I had a baby now we would have no car, debt and basically we would be screwed. If I get another job I still will not be getting a degree, nor will I be having a child. I am almost 25 years old and I have a husband that loves me and two cats that are amazing but all my friends and family are away, and my husband works 40hrs. I am alone a lot. I don't even have money to fly home and visit, and even doing that will delay having children or getting a second car or a degree. You see why October 25, 2003 totally SCREwed me over? AHhh. So this stupid day is coming up. It's put me in a funk, yes. It's gotten the better of me, yes. I am allowed to call it a FUCKEd up day. I am allowed to just hate on that day, but man am I not going to let it get the better of me. Tomorrow I am going to look into all schools near and far. I am going to ask about financial aid. I am going to get a second job, one that promises 20+hours. I am going to REALLY get my KBP brochures out there. I am going to help get rid of debt, and try to see about getting a degree OR an internship from a PP of SDC, whichever council prescribes. I am going to have a baby after we get a car and are more secure. This shit is happening people. God is by my side, (he understands me swearing about this day, he hurts when I hurt) I am going to work my butt off until I am happy and confident once again. 8 years is too long. I want that part of me lost back again. So badly. I will NOT give up on MY dreams.

(My heart was racing the whole time I wrote this down. It's the first time I've revisited the exact memories in a long time, It was very hard to write, a very dark place in my life - but I am happy to get it out, see we don't have the funds for therapy right now, and this works just fine - it just took me a few weeks to sort out my thoughts)....I had a total breakdown this eve, Chris was there for me, he listened and gave some helpful advice, I am so grateful for him. I don't know If I've ever even shared with him the extent of how the accident affects me. I try to keep it in but obviously that isn't working.  Now that I shared it with him I hear how silly it is that I am the only one keeping myself from accomplishing these things...and the fact that we moved from an island and are just dirt poor...) Pray for me. If you like. Pray for us. Life isn't easy right now. Money is the biggest factor. Then it's that I am not doing anything I want or love to do and Chris is not exactly ecstatic either about his job. Pray that the right job opportunity comes to me as I will be hunting for a second job. Also for my heart. That I will let this go. Thanks ya'll for whoever decided to read this depressing novel, but hey. It's my life. I had to let this out. Mostly motivation for myself. I have been crying, pity-partying all day and it's noting but my fault and lack of communication. I am that fun, spunky, drama free, energetic, happy, independent woman who is married to a strong confident independent man. I am done loosing myself, I can't wait to come back. PS...sorry there ARE typos. but I'm not going to take the time to fix them :)

Life by the Retro Camera...

 my new dress...SUUper cheap! Darling :)

 pool time with the hubs!!

 tigger finding a home in the doll house :)

 mom sent me a care package with yummy dips in it!

 craft time with coffee :)

 came home and the sky was really this orange!!

my outfit the other day, I liked it!

a little bit of everything....

oh life. it's been so crazy lately. Chris job situation. horrible. his boss met with him 2 months into working starting off with "i know it's not your fault but....." and told him all these things he didn't do that weren't under his control and these things that weren't communicated even though there would be no other way to deal with them than the way he was taking care of them.....and then "punishes him" by transferring him to a SLOW store 20 minutes from where we live for 6 months while that manager catches up for him "even though she doesn't think she will do any better". Chis is apparently supposed to be a mindreader here. He's had to say goodbye to his friends he just made, the commission that was helping debt and go to a slow, un-populated store for not doing anything wrong?! HELLOOO?!?! WHERE IS THERE SENSE IN THIS?! So like any man being kicked in the balls at his work his pride is hurt and he is really upset he's in trouble for something he didn't do and just dreading every day. It's HARD. to say the least. So since he is at a different store that far away - even though our car is fixed, I am now having to ride the bus to work every shift pretty much. On the plus side I get exercise and help the environment a bit by not driving more than we need to. I am suuuuper happy with my job, I am LOVing the girls and the time there - the days fly by. I LOVE the product. I LOVE that they make their concepts out of recycled material for the most part. I LOVE that there are soo many girls working that I get called often to cover shifts. This last week I worked 6 days. This week I am scheduled 5 days! WHAHOO! Thats a praise. It's still not more than 30 hours but it's getting close. Since Chris works farther and I have to take any shift I can get - we don't see each-other very much. this is hard. especially when a hate for life is there - poor hubbs. so lately I've been tested as a wife - I've failed some and done ok other times. Being understanding, listening, allowing the complaints, allowing the distancing, not nagging etc. It's been kinda a game of twister...we're not exactly in order. ha. It's yet another challenge for Chris and I, and we are doing ok. I think we hit the worst of it - and it's only getting better. So between trying to catch trolleys, busses, coming home at midnight, making dinners and lunches and breakfast, sleeping in, cleaning when i can, reading when i can - I have not been on here or doing my photo challenge as much as I would be :) I like it though. being busy. much better than sitting at home and on facebook all day - then blog, then watch drama and cry ha. oh and I've been making crafts and baking new things too. So. ha. Life is a whirlwind right now.....we are praying for Chris to get into Fashion Valley Mall again. We are praying his pay doesn't differ much so we can keep getting our debt down. I am praying for photo jobs and card sales. Money has also been a tense beautiful issue for us hah. oh man. but lately I feel the Lord totally providing. God is good -and we forget all too much. I have been reading about the famine in Africa and my heart aches for them. I think I am going to put up my cards on etsy - totally revamp the site - and have 25% of my profit go toward them. I can't wait to do this. Even when it's hard to pay the bills we somehow end up buying a coffee or spending money on things we don't need....i love that cards are something you give- and then the money will also be given to those in starvation - it's not much but every little bit helps. I have been reading lots still - I'm reading the mocking jay - of the hunger games - AMAZING books. I love it. - I will be done by this next sunday. Hopefully :) We have been MISSING maui. The people, the ocean the flowers - everything. Ah. Transitions. Here there are so many things though that remind me of Maui. Mainly the flowers :) Today I had off. I got to lay by the pool. Read. DRink coffee. Read in the pool. and I got FRIED. thats an understatement. but I LOVED it all. It was worth it. Ahh felt good to relax. 

{never a dull moment on public transportation - double glasses trying to read the tiny print on his orange pocket bible. LOVEit.}

 yesssssss

{birds of paradise}

My amazing cousin Kelsey and her dear husband Justin had their baby girl Coralee Ruth Martin on Friday August 19, 2011, weighing 7lbs, 13oz, 21in. She is PREcious. I cannot wait to meet this beauty. In december i will hold that precious one. Ah - it made me soo happy on Friday. I am soo happy and so proud of them. Hate that I'm not there - but It's something I'm getting used to. Can't wait to make my gifts for her. :) 

 {happy family of 3 :)}

My baby brother Michael Adelstein is the new up and coming tattoo artist at Old School Tattoo in Bellingham Washington. He did his first tat on August 12, 2011. and its AMAZING. He has been an apprentice for months now - and is finally going to be on payroll, soon! I am so proud and so happy for him. He LOVES it. I can't wait till he can do mine! in 2012 :) I'm going to wait a bit ha. 

 {the stud :)}

 {1st. :)}

{2nd- he's going to shade it next}

My second to oldest brother Caleb officially filed the papers for divorce on August 18, 2011 and in 92 days will be able to start fresh with his life. I've talked so much about him lately - ya'll know how I love him :) This stuff sucks. Point blank. I am hoping those days go by soo fast for him. Oh ya. He talked to the cousins about what happened. I am so proud. He is very brave. 

{bub and mama :)}

My eldest brother is going on dates!! He is not dating one girl but is meeting people he thinks he is interesting and getting to know them!!! AH his nose has been so much in the books for YEARS and finally sees the final award of all that work in the near future (a physical therapy doctor - owning his own company) and feels comfortable about starting a relationship now! Sad thing is he is soo aware with our brother and his friends divorce that he is suuper careful and marriage seems different now. I just can't wait till my boys will meet their loves someday - I have 4 more sisters to gain :) {brother in law's too!}. 

{I wanted an updated photo - he keeps getting more handsome.. :)}

My In-laws JUST had their 29th Wedding Anniversary and my father in law just had his birthday! So I made a little card for him :) We miss them and hope they visit in October like they said they might.

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

coming soon.............a bird mobile craft, friendship bracelet craft, continued photo project, cards for africa, happier life situations :) hope! and some new killer recipes :)

Fun on our days off :)

Chris and I wanted to see Captain America, so Chris looked for another theater and we decided that on the way we would look for the apartment he lived in when he was little with his parents! He kept talking about "That is the lanai where I grew my potatoes in my potato plant!" and "Thats where I learned to ride my bike!"sooo sweet. Love seeing that side of him.  So we found the exact place, and then went to the movie :) FUN! (Oh he also found it without an address :) He's amazing. 

I had Sunday off! I went to our Anthropologie Bowling Party!!! SOO fun. I got a ride with Lindsay, and played with Lindsay and Liz against Tierney, Laura and Shawn! SOO fun. We won and I played GREAT games. I laughed SO much. It felt good. I won two 10$ gift cards to Anthro that I got a cook book with :) So fun and I hope we do more things like this in the future.

Day 10 or 11?ha at Anthropologie :)

Ran a little late so I wasn't able to get much of a photo but you've seen the skirt and sandals before :) hah. A closing shift :) We closed to a disney mix. SUPER fun. {Shirt:Old Navy, Necklace:Hale Zen, Purse:Ross, Belt:Target, Skirt:Old Navy, Sandals:Mahina}

Life in Phone Photos...

Day 6:{top:VS, Jeans:AE, Undershirt:Walmart, Necklace and Bracelet:31BITS, Sandals:Mahina}

Chris and I finally had a day off last week....it seemed like it took forever to get there. Feels like we've been exercising all day every day by the distances and hills we've been taking to work and then working full shifts and the occasional missing a bus and having to walk twice as far. I know it's probably good for us but we are exhausted! We come home late, barely eat, crash, sleep in way late with enough time to rush to work and then it starts all over again. There is no time for anything fun or that involves energy, it's been kinda frustrating. This last friday we got some money in so we can get our car in to a shop HOPEFULLY today, if not tomorrow and then two days estimated for them to fix it. So last thursday Chris and I took the bus and the trolley to costco and target (no car = no picking up dry cleaning, grocery shopping etc...) So we did some of these things with backpacks and recycled bags in hand only getting the necessities. Catching Fire was one of those needs :) I read the first book The Hunger Games and LOVED it. So now I'm on page 100 and still just loving it. The SUSPENSE! Well even though we still did crazy amounts of traveling on foot that day, it was much more fun...we didn't have to rush, we got pizza at at woodfire pizza place, and ice cream too :) We have a day off tomorrow and I can't wait to hopefully just stay at home all day long. hah. LAZY!?! We deserve it!! I think my muscles are seriously strained by overuse. SOO out of shape. Im going to make sure I work out when our car is up and running so I can give those muscles the love they've been craving for oh so long. 

July 14th. My sister in laws 24th birthday. or EX?? sister in law. The day she brought the divorce papers filled out to Caleb, the day Caleb filled out the papers with Dads help and presence. The day I see on facebook that the papers are done. I got the wind knocked out of me. I never knew it would hit me like that. I knew it was coming. I knew it was only a matter of time and something that should happen, but the reality of it all, of them being officially no longer Caleb and Ava was a hard concept to take in. I went in the bathroom and just lost it. Saying goodbye to to good that was my old friend and my sister. Realizing im once again sister-less...something I asked to have every christmas growing up. Thinking of the hurt that Caleb could be going through and knowing I can't be there for him. I can't come over and cry with him or hug him or reassure him that they made the right decision. UGH. SICK feelings, hurt feelings, and massive amounts of sadness. Felt a bit like a death. Ava was so much more to me than most people know....Not as of late obviously but it was hard to know I won't have anything to do with her ever again. My Maui Mom got me out of my funk when she said "She was NOT the person you thought she was. She doesn't even know herself! This is a blessing. She has lied to all of you!" She was soo right. I've been so up and down about all of this. Confused as to how to react. Probably since I'm going through it a long distance away from all my family and (not a pity party but truth) alone. Truth is she has lied, and hurt us significantly. Caleb deserves soo much more and I am happy he's no longer a part of that damaging relationship. On to better things in life. I will have another sister in time. I am hopeful that some people who aren't in the position of Caleb's sister(me) can stay with Ava and continue to remind her of right and wrong and guide her on the right path. She doesn't need to believe in God again although that is our wish for her, but just that she can separate bad from good and sort out all the issues that run so deep in her creating blindness. To me - even though I don't even know if the Divorce is what you would say "Final" with lawyers present and all but that night knowing both parts were signed, their marriage is done. Thank goodness the Lord gives fresh starts and renews our minds, that he loves us unconditionally and won't give us more than we can handle. My brother, he is on the mend. He sees God like never before and that alone is the biggest blessing to me and the family. He blessed God by how he dealt with this whole situation, he will be blessed in return. 

My tigger baby keeping me company in the bathroom...:)

It was such a rough night, calling for cookies and wine.

The next day I felt much better, all cried out. hah. I did lots of cleaning at a slow pace and was super productive. I was in SUPER comfy clothes, had the blinds closed and the fans on making it feel like Washington on a rainy day even though the sun was shining away. I didn't care. Most of you know I LOVE the rain, and I miss it terribly. I was homesick that day and not talking to anyone for fear of falling apart again...so it was a peaceful me day. Cleaning, getting things done, drinking hot coffee, watching tv, reading my book, lovely. 

Day 8: {Jacket:Elise Second Hand Store, Dress:Elise Second Hand Store, Purse:Ross, Key Necklace: Husband, Belt:Target, Sandals:Mahina}

Day 9: {Scarf:Hale Zen, Top:VS, Undershirt:Walmart, Skirt:Old Navy, Purse:Ross, Jewelry: Maui Silver Jewelry}

And this was my sunset last night - looking at the top of the mall, headed to the trolley station. Last night was so nice. We took a cab hah. But we were home before 8, had a lovely dinner of chicken caesar salad, bagels for bread, and then brownies and wine for dessert. We had a nice evening together and weren't as pooped as we have been. Refreshing :) I can't wait for what this new week will bring. Here is what I hope for : (order irrelevant) 1. Caleb's heart to be happy, 2. another friend to have financial miracles come to her and her family or just ANYTHING good, 3. our car to get fixed at the estimated price that we know and nothing else to be wrong with it, 4. for us to make friends, 5. I KNOW we are hanging with John and Heidi tomorrow night and im excited, 6. time to read and craft :), 7. my little brother will keep having people to tattoo so he can be ready as an employee, 8. my big brother to stop getting sick, 9. that I get some photo jobs? 10. that I get more hours at work, 11. that Chris has a great week not feeling exhausted hah - thats all i can think of for now...I hope you all have a GREAT week. 

Day 3 at Anthropologie :)

{Top: Target, Cardigan: Anthropologie, Skirt: Target, Sandals: Mahina, Necklace: Nanny :) }

FUN! So it was my first official day on the floor! The second day was a deep sunday cleaning shift. I LOVED working during store hours. 4 hrs, and worked int the fitting room and the front. Folding, organizing and mainly customer service :) It was fast pace, new and exciting. Can't wait till I work more than two days a week :) 

First Day at Anthropologie :)

Well, it was all paper work and a tour but it was still my official first day at work :) This was my first outfit! It's not the best, I am a work in progress!

{no hubby home to take my picture, but oh well! Next time!}

I'm now a sales associate at.......

Antropologie :) 

Thanks for your thoughts and prayers you guys! I have a job! WHOOP! Now it's just to find one more to make me a full time job girl since I don't think they will have quite enough hours for me. YAY!