patience is NOT my virtue.

LOVE seeing every friend get pregnant. I take joy in seeing their happiness in life with a love they never knew they could have. I am not one ounce of jealous, or bitter or resentful of choices chris' and i have made in life. What I am is ready. It's MY turn. I Long for it to be my turn. My hearts desire is to have a family with my incredible husband that i have been blessed with. Aching, longing, excited, anxious and just ready. 3. 3 is a good number. I look forward to being a family of 3. When I don't have to wish for a baby on my birthday, it will be in my arms. When I don't have to stare at everyone else's baby at disneyland, I will be smitten with my own. When I don't have to feel like crying when the mother in law gives me chris' baby things for her future grandson, i will be able to dress him with those things his father used to wear, or the candle topper my nanny made me that mom sent me in a care package, i will be prepping it for my babe's first birthday. UGH it's hard. I've never wanted anything more in my life for soo long. 2012 has to be it right?  12. the day my husband and I got married. I think it HAS to be 2012. oh Lord you know my heart.

these are the precious things we got from the in-laws when they came to visit in January. they were chris' things. 

 perfect babe.

did you ever see anything more darling than those cheeks?! 

 Raggy - his raccoon. 

c.l.e. christopher lyle evans.

Happy Thursday!

Hello all! I am drinking my coffee while watching spongebob with my husband this fine morning. Today I am praying to get a call back from Bath and Body Works, and I have an interview at Anthropologie at 4pm. We were invited to go to the pre-show of all the photo entries located at the Del Mar Fair by a connection we made recently. VERY excited to do this, there are supposed to be many local photographers there! Tomorrow I am going to start from the beginning and job hunt in Mission Valley. In the meantime - I am dreaming of having these wonderful things (that are all sold out..) in my home one-day. I dream of living off the ocean, with a light nautical and beach like feel. I think I should start collecting now :) Have a great Thursday! (Vintage Ship Bookends, Port Hole Mirror and the Scrimshaw Whale Plate)

Can't Wait :)

Someday my Prince and I will make a little us. I can't wait for that day. Being home for 2.5 days I had quite a bit of baby time and LOVED it. My last days in Maui I also got baby time in. It makes me all warm inside, the thought of having something that is the most incredible love of my life. A little person to teach, watch grow, kiss booboos, read to, get hugs and kisses for no reason and much more than that. YaY! The future excites me. Here is a photo from a FAVorite photographer, Aubrey! She mainly does weddings and engagements, but I found this on her website :)

a little bit tattered. (a MUST go to etsy account.)

http://www.etsy.com/people/ALittleBitTattered?ref=ls_profile

My dear friend Kristine has hand-made these beautiful pieces of jewelry. I love them. I ordered treasured. No matter how many people call me fat, ugly, ask if they could wax my eye brows, tell me I should get a boob job and wear high heels I know that the Lord my God treasures me just the way I am. He loves me inside and out and wouldn't ask me to change a thing. It means a whole lot when the world has soo much pressure to be a certain perfect, or even when loved ones don't appreciate you so. God does. Treasures and loves us tattered and all.

Shoe Fetish. Want These...

I love shoes...and am on a tight budget...so for now I can only dream!! Christmas list?!?

Ugandals..

White High Top Chucks...

and These TOMS..

(I know everyone likes the red stripe..but I'm a sucker for Brown and White!!)

hmm....Time for new TOMS?!?!

do I want these....

...or these?!?!? (I'm leaning towards the brown and white..!!)